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God is enough. HE is TOO much!
May 27, 2009When you feel like you are all alone and exhaustion sinks in and overwhelms you, FIGHT. When you feel like shitty and so goey, when you feel like going by the board without your consent, FIGHT. But when you feel things around you started to change and you can no longer see yourself as the person you used to know, and when you started to eat all the words and curses you have uttered, BE STILL. You are not that problematic, you are just in dire need of EXTRA GRACE. That’s why you have to PRAY.
This summer has been the craziest season of my life. I had a checklist which as far as i know, has no marks yet. T_T. But if i could redo that checklist, ALL of it would change. To make it more exciting, I’d say I’ve been in the GOSSIP GIRL world this summer. Parties, friends , problems. I’ve been mulling over things, taking chances and crossing roads which i thought i would not encounter. Not at this point. Not that early.
I saw this character weeks ago which drove me insane. It was like a nightmare escaping from my subconscious mind. He was a ghost of the past resurrected. The effect? It was like drugs. Addiction. Confusion. Depression. I’ve been trying to see my doctor but he is nowhere to be found. I consulted a friend and what did i get? An eerie laughter. Maybe it wasn’t really my time to get comforted. It was not the time for me to get scared or to run away or to leave all these behind. I knew it was more of a fight that’s why i had to brace myself and endure the pain of fighting. I’ve struggled so much only to find out things had already gone complex. More complex than i had expected. And so the last resort was to give in, to give up the fight, to lose.
And so it happened. It was all back. It was like history repeating itself only that i am not certain how things would turn out this time. I felt betrayed by myself. I was fighting hard for years just to escape from the past and yet there i was enjoying every moment of it. I was not sure then if it was the right decision but it felt right. It felt good though confusing. I spread the news and i got numerous reactions coming from different people and then it felt bad. It sucks hearing a family insult you but i knew it was okay. It’s done and i can’t get it back. I was depressed , wetting my pillows at night and hurting myself in every emotional way i know.
But then just when i needed it the most, GOD’s love poured on me and made me realize the consequences of all my actions. I called upon HIM and he listened intently. Hushing like child, i felt better. I let go of the dilemma and offered the situation in a moment and it felt good. I shared the word for an hour with the closest people i was with and boom! at an instant i knew all the answers to my questions. It was so intense, the feeling was so overwhelming seeing yourself back to the arms of the father. It was a great relief knowing that things will never get wrong with HIM. I saw myself standing by my decisions but it felt really right that time, no hesitations, no buts, no regrets. Then it came to me that the solution to every problem is GOD. No matter how simple or complicated a situation maybe, all you have to do is to put GOD at the center of it and no matter how wrong you might think it was, HE will calm your heart and redirect things towards His plans.
GOD is enough i say, He is too much! I can’t imagine life without Him . We may have played Blair and Chuck this summer but it doesn’t matter now. I know all we have to do now is to put GOD at the center of whatever we have and everything will be alright. Keep praying i say, it really changes things. Oh and by the way, I played Chuck and not Blair this summer. But it was all over. You know you like me. xoxo
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good . that’s nice
Posted by cassiopeia at July 3, 2009, 4:37 pm
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Posted by jet at June 29, 2009, 1:57 pm